Little anxiety things

I think what bothers me the most at being told to hide my work-related anxiety (which, let’s be clear, is very sound advice given the perception of anxiety and many other mental illnesses nowadays) is that *it doesn’t help with the anxiety*.

Like, there are limits to ‘fake it until you make it’: they’re somewhere between 'I don’t feel prepared for this’ and 'I feel nauseous when I leave for this important work assignment during the week’ and when I reach the twisted stomach stage I need someone to, idk, give me a framework to work with or tell me I’m doing good in a way that I can believe
(The trick being that #2 is pretty much impossible but I digress)

But since I know it’s best for my professional life if I don’t show too much anxiety (which I usually fail at a little) I end up having to deal with a two headed beast, worrying I’m a bad teacher + worrying about hiding that from my boss just in case I can somehow maintain my position here :/