You know, I was thinking about Digimon Adventure Tri and how I really hope it’ll be good and that it will lead to some new Yamato centric fic and I realized… I was only about 11-12 when I watched this show the first time around. It was my fandom before I knew how to fandom, and Taito was my ship before I knew how to ship, and Yamato was pretty much my very first obsession over a character ever.
I remember loving that he was so sad and believed so little in himself without knowing why–I remember he felt more real to me, more accessible, and I honestly never wanted him to be with any of the girls on the show. (Taito was kind of the only option I saw at the time, but even when straying from it, I never really wanted to imagine Yamato as straight, tho I didn’t think of it in these terms at the time)
And basically, looking back on it I realize Tiny Me didn’t so much fall in love with this character as found herself in him.
The truth of the matter is that I’m more excited for a chance at getting more of this character than I’m excited for Digimon in itself because Yamato was so so so important to me and he resonated so deeply, and I can handle this series being bad, I really can, but if Toei ruins him for me I’ll be so fucking angry I’m not sure I’ll find the words to express it.
Matt was the reason I didn’t feel quite so desperate when I came home from school after a day of dealing with classmates I disliked profoundly. He was the reason I felt a little less bad about being sad without reason, and he taught me to value friends and what they bring you and really just… Yamato “Matt” Ishida was such a formative character for me, and he’s still so important to me because to this day I still have moments where I stop and picture what he’d do to deal with such and such situation and it still helps–my headcanon of him grows up with me and he still helps me and that’s just… Idk I guess I never really realized how important a character he was to me until now, but even without that, if I have to pinpoint one element of my fannish life that’s stayed with me through the year, it would be him.
Welp, there it is, I’m getting emotional about him again.